Bad News (And I Don't Mean Poker)

Hello,

My niece, my sister's daughter, passed away a few hours ago. My sister had premature twins girls in October of last year. While one came home within a couple of weeks, the other remained in the hospital for the next seven months of her life. She was really looking good and things were very positive. She was happy and smiling every time I visited her. But she took a turn for the worse this week and died earlier this evening.

I was not feeling up to anything for a few hours but needed to watch some TV to stay sane. I might actually hit the tables tonight just to divert my attention (as bad as it sounds it is better than staring at the walls and doing nothing). I am trying to keep busy tonight as I know tomorrow (the funeral) will not be a good day. I am mostly very sad for my sister as I could not fathom being in her situation. Having three children of my own, the thought sends shiver down my spine. Since my niece was in the hospital I did not have the same bond with her as I do for my other nieces and nephews. All the same I am still out of it as a result. It's never easy.

On the poker front, which doesn't seem all that important right now, I finally managed to win my satellite into the Razz FTOPS which, of course, I will not play considering what has happened and that the event is tomorrow night. I was looking forward to playing in this event for some time and was ultimately going to buy in directly if I couldn't satellite my way in but for some reason it doesn't seem relevant right now. I believe that this is the one event I have an actual shot at winning or finishing near the top. But I will keep my priorities in check as there is no way that I will be in the right frame of mind to play in the tournament. There's always another.

See you on the felt,